Well, even though I've woken up with a bright red spot on the end of my nose, which is surely going to be a monster pimple, (which I blame on my screwed up hormones), I'll hesitantly say that I think the spotting/pseudo-period has stopped, or at least has taken a break for now.

I had this long duscussion with Mike this morning, no matter how you slice it, I feel defective, because it isn't any fault of his that we're having a hard time getting and staying pregnant. He's a sweetheart though and insists that it doesn't matter to him, he holds nothing against me and loves me no matter what. I appreciate that of course, but it doesn't stop me from feeling the way I do.

Then again, why am I having such a hard time with this right now when we're not even trying at the moment? Had we already had the appointment I'm waiting for at the end of May, and had the go ahead to try we could have tried this month (y'know, if I wasn't having these spotting issues). But since the appiointment isn't until May 28th (and who knows what they'll want to do beyond that) we decided to get the new car instead, so we're still waiting until August (as originally planned).

Meh, I'm just a mess.

But on the plus side, we get to go out for dinner tonight to celebrate Mike's birthday. He'll be 28 tomorrow, but since it's our day off today, we're celebrating a day early. But now, I really need to stop procrastinating and get off my ass to do some tae-bo.